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Tuesday, April 26th, 2005
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| Time: | 12:52 pm. |
| Mood: |  gloomy. | | Music: | pictures of houses/tilly and the wall. |
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If you read this, even if I don't speak to you often, please post a memory of you & me. It can be anything you want, be it good or bad, just so long as it happened. Then, post this to your journal. See what people remember about you.
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Comments: Read 22 or Add Your Own.
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Wednesday, April 20th, 2005
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Tuesday, April 19th, 2005
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| Time: | 8:36 am. |
| Mood: |  flirty. | | Music: | CS. |
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only if every minuite in school didn't feel like an hour,
then maybe I would be here more often.
after school = long beach with everybody
then, circa survive show in west babylon
pancakes with anthony green afterwards<3 he just doesn't know it yet.
school is so long and tedious; fast forward ! ->2:15
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Comments: Read 4 or Add Your Own.
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| Time: | 8:52 pm. |
| Mood: |  cheerful. |
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kristina is here - brought to you by... budweiser!
my weekend was perfect
with a perfect ending on the beach watching the sunset with five great people
I love my life
content, for once <3
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Comments: Read 6 or Add Your Own.
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Saturday, April 16th, 2005
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Wednesday, April 13th, 2005
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| Time: | 8:31 am. |
| Mood: |  excited. |
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May 6th zolof the rock & roll destroyer is playing at VP south!
!!!
I'm ecstatic. I love them. EVERYBODY GO! it's going to be amazing<3
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Comments: Read 2 or Add Your Own.
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Tuesday, April 12th, 2005
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| Time: | 11:16 am. |
| Mood: | cold. |
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today was different,
today it seemed as if most kids were out of tears to cry
while I was empty to begin with
you could almost see thoughts drifting over their heads,
but lately the question hasn't been "why?" as much as "what's next?"
or, who, for that matter.
I'm going to global.
I don't know what to do.
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Comments: Read 4 or Add Your Own.
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| Time: | 1:31 pm. |
| Mood: |  apathetic. |
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I don't feel it yet - not even close. I hate that. I hate myself for that.
This isn't breathing space. This is a medicated nightmare.
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Comments: Read 4 or Add Your Own.
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| Time: | 9:34 am. |
| Mood: |  exhausted. | | Music: | bright eyes. |
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My new job is great, I love working with dan and evan, I love the pretty laptop I get to work on in starbucks, I love walking around port jeff every day.
this weekend I'm finally getting my Ipod! (:
I really regret coming to school today, I don't need to be here at all until thursday. 4 1/2 hours & counting.
-->Sunday, April 10th - Daughters show at MB1 <3 you should go.
Is anybody else excited for summer? First day = beach party. Bon fire, tent or dare, acoustic guitars, "christmas", alcohol.
I slept far too much to be this tired. Shoot my face.
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Comments: Read 11 or Add Your Own.
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| Time: | 8:26 am. |
| Mood: |  amused. | | Music: | the faint. |
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q and not u was amazing last night,
encrypt too.
paul had this idea to go on a road trip to Georgia after the show
and everybody was up for it for like, a minuite.
that would have been neat - instead we're all going to spend a night in the city saturday.
I think a lot about leaving. I pack my bags at least once every week.
I already haven't made it to 2 of my classes today, but you know,
it could be worse. I could be in Georgia.
I have a new job; it pays a lot better than my old one and I get to make a lot of mac & cheese (-:
Gee - it'd be really nice to have a boyfriend. I don't mean just anyone. I'm talking about the boyfriend. The guy that you connect to on an entirely different level and you still love him to death.
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Comments: Read 12 or Add Your Own.
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Tuesday, March 29th, 2005
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| Time: | 12:47 am. |
| Mood: | restless. | | Music: | bear vs. shark. |
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fuck you , show I wanted to be at
this vacation
has been
eventful.
I need a real person to vent to
Not my doctor who responds to everything with,
"How does that make you feel?"
Well, I feel really paranoid right now
confused
upset
anxious
and alone.
Above all I refuse to believe that he feels the same way about me.
He says he does, but he couldn't possibly.
I hate this journal, if I wanted to talk to a brick wall I'd do just that. give me feedback.
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Comments: Read 8 or Add Your Own.
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Wednesday, March 23rd, 2005
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| Time: | 9:51 am. |
| Mood: | bouncy. |
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yesterday my therapist diagnosed me with some form of ADD
the symptoms are "profound" and i've been "suffering" all of these years
hah.
I start meds soon, but I'm not sure what she wants to put me on yet
she also told me that she's going to cut my school hours 9-12
& that's pretty sick.
my first day as a supermarket slave wasn't torture
I'm used to be confined to a computer.
anyway.
I'm going to 'this year's addiction' at molly blooms today, let me know if you're going too - later on I think I'll be hanging out at cathryn's and that should be fun, she's a cool girl. tomorrow I'm staying over rob's and I'm quite happy that we're finally going to hang out.
I'm busy the rest of the week, let me know if anybody wants to see me this weekend, I miss a lot of kids♥ *cough* crystal ♥
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Comments: Read 2 or Add Your Own.
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| Time: | 9:53 am. |
| Mood: |  aggravated. |
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last weekend was alright, Im counting on the vacation to be amazing though so if I've tried to make plans with you recently, act on that ♥
saturday's show was long and drawn out but VV played well & so did edelyn
afterwards my new friend cathryn came over to help me with homework
then we picked up crystal and took the train to kp for mike's party
I drank, and then I cried.
This is the third time this has happened & I hate myself for it
and yet, at the same time part of me really needs to let go of a lot of inhibitions;
at the top of my head I can think of three things that are really dragging me down and I have to talk to somebody about it soon.
anyway glenn saved my weekend yesterday, we talked a lot and it was nice.
<3
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| Time: | 8:17 am. |
| Mood: |  confused. |
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"Insanity is knowing that what you're doing is completely idiotic, but still, somehow, you just can't stop it."
"I froze before the keyboard. I couldn't think of a damn thing to say. No poems, no prose, no words. The pain cannot even be alchemized into art, into words, into something you can chalk up to an interesting experience because the pain itself, its intensity, is so great that it has woven itself into your system so deeply that there is no way to objectify it or push it outside or find its beauty within."
spring is entirely overrated.
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Comments: Read 5 or Add Your Own.
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Thursday, March 17th, 2005
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| Time: | 1:18 pm. |
| Mood: |  anxious. |
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tuesday I begin my tedious work at shoprite
this is the weekend I get to pretend that it's going to be fun
and that I'll love the people I work with.
tomorrow is a meeting with my ap + teachers + guidance counselors to discuss my performance in school and ways to improve it.
sadly, I have not been invited to this gathering.
I would have wonderful suggestions too, like:
-10 bags of skittles for going to chemistry
-2 kittens for every time I pass a math test
-a personal mime to follow me around and make life entertaining for doing any homework whatsoever
the list goes on, but do they want my suggestions? no, how silly.
the braces are coming off in one hour whether my orthodontist thinks it necessary or not.
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| Time: | 8:36 am. |
| Mood: | aggravated. | | Music: | librarychattah. |
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I'm in school right now I guess It's better off this way,
but unfortunately kris is now an official pussy.
I'm getting my braces off in a couple of hours. bang.
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